Maybe this stuff is too heavy for a blog that is basically visable to anyone (though I'm sure no one really looks) but I just feel like I need to have a vent session.
For the last 8 married months of my life I have never felt happiness like this. I have never felt poverty like this, I have never felt wealthy like this. But at the same time I feel like now that I am in my "real life" things matter so much more, which has also created an un-before-seen amount of stress on me.
First it was the money. That was such a great lesson. We literally had nothing. We would've gone down to steal food from family more often if we could've afforded the gas. We got to a point where we had eaten all of our ramen, mac n' cheese, and spaghetti noodles. We were hungry, but somehow managed to have just enough for bills, after tithing, of course. Never had either of us struggled like that before. Dave really stepped up to the plate and turned into this wonderful money manager, despite a history (for both of us) of a casual approach to money management. Once we finally had some more money coming in we felt so overwhelmed(in the "my cup runneth o'er" kind of way). We could buy milk. Every week if we wanted to! That was a wonderful and HARD thing we went through. I am so grateful, but at the time I would occasionally break down into tears with fear, pressure, and the arguments that came from it.
Now we are onto an entirely new lesson. Dave and I are having some health problems. Dave more than me, but I'm sure it will all work out eventually.
